As another birthday looms in the near future, I’ve been doing some soul-searching about my health. I don’t know why but I always start thinking about my own mortality and longevity around my birthday. Am I going to die? And how will it happen?  Obviously I don’t know the answers but I find myself pledging to try my best to be healthy and I usually fail despite my best efforts.


However previous pledges to get healthy have been met with some resistance by my body and my mind. I’ve tried to get healthy and lose weight but sometimes it just feels insurmountable. I assume it’s because I have a tremendous amount of weight to lose so I just get tired and give up. Speaking of getting tired, I am tired all the freaking time. Like all the time. When I wake up in the morning, I’m exhausted. When I have 10 gallons of coffee, I could take a nap.  Anyone else feel like all of the things they do that should wake them up make them more tired?

In the midst of my soul-searching I started thinking about why I’m so tired and all signs point to a general lack of wellness. I’ve been to my doctor and she says on paper I’m okay. No high blood pressure, no diabetes, no hormone imbalance (I think this is wrong but we’ll talk about that later).  So WTF is happening in my body? If my doctor says I’m healthy I should feel better right?

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Personally I feel like I’m stuck in a vicious cycle and I know other moms can relate. I work a minimum of 5 jobs, including running my own business, plus taking care of Chan full-time which I consider to be another job. My health and well-being are definitely not top of the priority list and haven’t been for some time. I’ve tried weight loss programs before and had small success but I feel like I’m at a point that goes deeper than just losing weight. I want to FEEL BETTER. I want to have energy again. I want to be able to get up off the floor without failing the longevity test. I know these are linked to my weight but I truly believe there is more to it and I’m not just doomed to old age problems.

Here’s what I want: I want to have a nice smile again. For the past several years my smile has been shifting. Apparently this is something that can happen as you get older. Yay? I want to quiet my mind. I’ve always had trouble with this. My mind races constantly with ideas, goals and conversations and it’s exhausting. Mental health and wellness is just as important as physical wellness IMO. I want to try beauty regimens that I see millennials doing and see if they really do make you feel more beautiful. Sometimes a simple change in moisturizer can lift my spirits. Imagine what a beauty makeover can do!

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Basically what it boils down to is that I want to explore health and wellness options to see if I can find the magic combination to make me feel better and get rid of my Tired Mom Syndrome. Chris thinks it won’t go away until Chan is 18, but I don’t think I can wait that long.  I’m on a mission to fix this because quite honestly I don’t know how much longer I can go feeling this exhausted.

I would love to hear from you! What health, beauty and wellness things are you doing in your life that give you energy? That make you want to wake up in the morning and attack the day? Or that simply, make you feel less tired? I want to hear it all! I’ll be posting about my wellness journey here and on my social channels so you can follow along. Ideally I find something that works for me, but a great side effect would be if you were also inspired to explore these options too.